Seed of Life

"Are you a genius?", he asked sarcastically.
"Of course not! I just get super high, and read crazy stuff, and talk with crazy people. I don't retain any of this knowledge, I just look at it and say 'Duuuuuude, this is awesome!'. I have nothing but doubt my friend."

This is my first post. Pour yourself some coffee, take a toke and relax.



Who else has doubt? I'm sure a lot of you. I hold my doubt closer than any other truth, make love to it, then kick it out of bed with a curse and no phone call the next day. Things are a changing. Anyone who lurks the interwebz searching for truth long enough will eventually find some reference to the NWO, lizard people, David Icke, Sumerian invasion from Nibiru, or any other conspiracy theory. Even in the event of these situations, we must retain ourselves. But first we must figure out who we really are. This blog will be my thoughts, as any other blog is, just a spewing of an individual's ideas like vomit into an already polluted pond, and will grow and evolve along side my inquisition. I would like to find out everything that we can hold on to when all but doubt itself has been doubted away, thanks Descartes. But we must have doubt for doubt as well. Someone once said to me, "We will get closer to truth by questioning, then we will by accepting that there is no truth...what else are we gonna do?" Well, we could meditate I suppose. Direct understanding maybe? Who is to say?

I am not searching for a unified field theory. I am not searching for truth. I am searching for experiences, sensations, creations, groupings, separations, spaces between. I am on a quest for an unknown purpose. As anyone else on this quest can see, there are many paths ahead. Many seem to cross, or even coalesce, but some seem completely obscure. There is always another rabbit hole as well, for I can also choose to simply sit down and look inside to find myself at a different crossroad. What path do you choose? It seems sometimes like most choose the path of occupation, reproduction, and retirement, only to find themselves staring at the ceiling alone in their deathbed wondering who they really are without their body. One could also suggest that I have already chosen my path by seeing this commonality between other Americans. Maybe I choose to see all these facets of my experience as reality, maybe its like that movie The Matrix!! I have no idea, but I assure you that I am much more interested in what we can't see than what is in front of our face. Call me an escapist, ill call you a prisoner. We are all on the same path I reckon anyway, so have some love, and let people speak their minds. Behold the ancient axiom, "Know thyself." and meditate on this for a long time. I am no guru, just a brother, a friend, a lover, an enemy, whatever you choose to see me as. You are your own source of power, know thyself and your passions and in the face of all opposition you will be immortal by your own self sacrifice. As above, so below.

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